I realized over the last couple days (well, more like rediscovered) that I'm a net-negative kind of person. While I may have some few good points, overall, I'm a drag on others' lives. I bring more negativity into their lives than I'm able to balance with any positive aspects. I see that his has been true all my life. No one has ever been happy with me for long, and the positive days always end up greatly outnumbered by the negative ones.
Until that changes, I think I need to limit my interactions with others. The last thing I want to do is bring people down, but that's all I seem capable of doing. Life is easiest when I know I'm not dragging anyone down, and I think "easy" is the only way I'll make it through. I don't think I have the fortitude to do anything more than survive.
2:45 p.m. - 2020-11-13
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