I don't feel like I can write freely here anymore. Not that I think anyone will judge me, but moreso that I'm very self-conscious about the fact that anything I honestly feel like writing about will be just a repeat of things I've been saying for decades, and I think by now I've proven that venting is fairly worthless.
I wonder if anything in my life would be better if I had any form of regular physical contact/connection with someone? I just looked back through my journal, and I've had exactly one moment of physical contact with someone (a handshake when I sold my truck), since I visited flood in TC (I got home on 9/3 - that makes... 83 days with only one handshake from a stranger). Do others deal with this, or am I the only one on here who's this isolated?
...I got curious, so I went further back through my journal, and it seems the last time I even kissed someone was KW in October 2014. It's kinda sad, isn't it?
(edit to correct: I thought that seemed wrong, so I double-checked. It was with Viv, May 2015.)
8:09 p.m. - 2020-11-25
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