Got invited out Wed to open mic night @ Lou's by MB, as he was playing that night. I'm still of the opinion that, because people so rarely invite me anywhere, that if someone does, I've got to go, even if I really don't want to. Was a decent night, saw a few of the bar regulars I know, had a few drinks (which I shouldn't have). When open mic was over, I headed to the Dog for a few. I don't feel like rehashing banal details about the night, but after having those "few more drinks", I went home, got online & proceeded to pass out on the couch. Woke up & went to bed around 5a, got up around 8a, & felt like shit all day.
I need to rethink the "going out whenever invited" thing, I think. Truthfully, I need to rethink "going out". I never really thought I'd feel this way, but I'm kind of to the point of not even caring if I see another live band again, at least, not for years. I just don't care. It's not my scene, I guess. Then again, *nothing is my scene, so where does that leave me? Would much prefer to hang out at someone's place, or at mine, with just a few friends. Thing is, I couldn't really invite people over, because I'm the worst at keeping conversations going, and since Bo moved away, I don't know anyone else who's outgoing/chatty enough to "keep things rolling". *sigh*
Speaking of rarely getting invited out, or even receiving texts since my "hiatus" from facespace, I've gotten texts from precisely four people; a band guy that's friends with Bo, a band guy who's friends with Huey, Meg_D, and MB. Not a word, from the rest of the (I'd say) 20-25 people I saw regularly when I went out, who are actually on my facespace friends list. In fact, I only got three messages from people on there about my announced absence. I suppose I shouldn't expect an outpouring of concern, but I did think there might be a few more people who'd want to see me/hang out or something at some point. Then again, who wants to hang out with the super-introverted depressed guy, right?
"Woe is me, nobody likes me, I suck at life!" Sometimes I think I'm an idiot. Other times, I know it.
1:01 p.m. - 2014-10-17
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