Went to the pub for lunch again today Got to talk with my two favorite crushe... I mean, waitresses. One of them, I hadn't talked to in quite a while, and she told me she might be leaving soon for another job. Since I might not see her again before she left (if she gets the new job) she decided to hang out & talk with me a bit, when she wasn't busy. We talked about a lot of things, starting with the new job/pay, tips, and how one of the waitresses there got a $1000 tip from a woman who'd worked there years ago, rude customers, her ex & how much of an ass he is, her new b/f, kids, travel, goals, etc. We ranged all over, and Ill be damned if she doesn't think exactly like I do about almost everything. Dealing with stoopid and/or rude people (think of them as children who haven't learned any better), how to behave towards/treat women and how most men (boys?) her age don't have a clue how to, etc. She doesn't want kids, wants to be able to travel, especially to/within Europe. We got onto that topic when I started talking about the fact that finding those type of women (attractive, self-sufficient, independent, who aren't interested in kids) is almost impossible, because they're never single.
Anyway, the entire conversation had me feeling really positive, both because it was great to have just that kind of woman sitting right across from me, agreeing with everything I said, and, I must admit, because she is really good at making eye contact, which is something I really dig. If only she weren't taken, and so much younger than me. Oh well.
My other crush - um, waitress (the tall one, if I haven't ever specified), talked with me quite a bit as well. Just random chit-chat, but I did get the opportunity to invite her for a ride on the cycle (I rode to the pub today - beautiful, sunny day, clear roads, but only 23 deg!). She accepted too, but only once it warms up! Hope she still feels that way come spring I'll really be looking forward to that!. I really should invite the other waitress for a ride too. Who knows, that might be something she's not into, and that would shatter that lovely illusion, wouldn't it!? heh
Now that I'm talking about attractive women with whom I've been interacting, I guess I should mention that two from last night. One was in charge of the door for the bands at Lou's last night. I've seen her up there several times, and each time we've caught each others' eye. I finally got to talk to her a bit last night, mostly about the music scene, all the shows i attend (hence my venue-hopping), and I got her name before I left (the first time). Went to another venue, but when I came back, I couldn't for the life of me remember what it was! Ugh, I suck... I walked through and smiled, but didn't say anything. When I came back out, she told me she'd meant to say "welcome back" but was busy with someone paying to get in. I did the only thing I could do (aside from thank her for the welcome!) and admitted that her name slipped my mind the moment I got outside, and would she tell me again? She gave me a little way to remember by using (either her middle or last name) with the first. It was catchy, and I definitely remember it now! I hope to run into her again next weekend. I also hope I don't run out of topics and settle on small talk again...
At the last venue of the night, I ran into a bunch of people I knew. Upstairs, my fave local drummer & his band were playing, and those cats can play! They have two versions of their band, depending on who's fronting it - last night was a couple of blues guys, and they did a bunch of covers. Really fun to watch/hear, but the crowd was horrible. Place was packed, but it was all college kids, and not the cool kind. Eventually, I made my way downstairs to see the band I had planned on. While there, I noticed a shorter gal who kept looking at me. I didn't think much of it beyond "dig me, all gettin' checked-out"! Ran into her at the bar later (and yes, I'm still only drinking diet) and it turns out, we were introduced by her brother a week or two ago. (He's the guy I want to have fix my old cycle.) We actually talked quite a bit, maybe for a half-hour? about open mic nights, the comedy scene in town (she does standup comedy, I guess? which they'd had earlier in the night). Talked a lot about music, playing instruments, etc. Overall it was a fun time.
It's odd to me that *not* drinking has done more to improve my social anxiety than drinking ever did. I seem to be getting back to who I want to be. Of course, it very well might not have anything to do with drinking, since I've come just about full circle time-wise, with my depression. Looking at how many years it took me to pull out of my major depressive episodes in the past, I seem to be right on schedule. I can only hope this means that within the next year or so, I'll find someone to date again. I'm not going to look any further than that, because the next step is dating for a couplefew years, then breaking up and being alone for another several, and I don't want to think about that! ;-)
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Just occurred to me - it's pretty sad that I can get such a boost from nothing more than a couplefew conversations with the kinds of women I find attractive. Pitiful, if you think about it.Like an old football hero getting taste of his former glory making a great play in a pickup game in the park. A has-been's reminder of better days gone by.
Slightly off-topic, did I mention the article I saw recently about when our best memories are made? I told you, remember that entry about the picture that said your best days have yet to come?
Wrong...
5:21 p.m. - 2014-02-23
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