On the plus side of things (since I decided to delete the post I alluded to last night), I've been feeling pretty good overall recently. My lifting is going well - in fact, all of my lifts have gone up in the last few weeks. Even though I've still got a bit of "fluff" on me, I'm seeing quite a bit of muscle finally (well comparatively speaking), and that makes me feel pretty good. First week in January I'll be testing my one rep maxes for most of my lifts, and then I'll see how much improvement I've made in the last several months.
I've also been feeling better because I've been flirting with a few really cute women recently (granted, they're all servers I see on a regular basis). I understand that their job is to be nice, friendly and social, but they always go out of their way to find me/talk to me, and quite often will take over my table even if it's not their area. Most of the time now, they'll stop & sit with me to talk for a bit, too. Best part is, there's always a lot of smiles & eye contact, which I used to be really bad at (too shy), but I've been working on improving. So far, pretty successful! Only sad thing about it is, smiles & eye contact are all it takes to make me feel good at this point; kind of pitiful, isn't it!? Anyway, at least it's fun! I keep hoping this "practice" will eventually pay off, but it seems unlikely, because every cute girl I talk to ends up being spoken for. I'm not surprised by that, of course, just disappointed!
I talked with a couple of my bar-friends the other night about open mic night (one of the guys runs an open mic night at one of my regular bars). Turns out I can get by with just doing three songs if I want, so I've decided that I'm going to do my best to play at least once by the end of January. Haven't decided on songs yet, but I have a few in mind. As long as my mood stays this positive, I feel confident I can get this done. I'm really getting tired of always talking about this and not acting on it. Hope I don't let myself down again, but if for some reason I do, I'll just set a date for the next month & keep trying...
11:26 p.m. - 2013-12-22
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