1) I really suck at staying out of bars.
2) Zanax works really well for reducing my headaches/back pain
3) Zanax also doesn't appear to affect how I handle alcohol in the least bit, other than making me a bit mellow.
4) Nothing I do seems to relieve the emptiness I feel.
5) I had some really cool dreams last night, but now all I can remember is a conversation I had with a girl that, in the dream, I'd apparently dated before. She told me that my big problem was that I seemed like I'd be fun to hang with/see a show or something like that, but that I didn't come across as "long-term" material. I have no idea what that means, or why my subconscious would be telling me that, but there it is.
6) Got the brakes on my cycle fixed for the third time, and it seems like they're actually correct this time. Also had to have the front tube replaced, as the tire was losing around 10 psi per month. Going from aftermarket to stock brakes (and including the tube replacement) cost me an additional $230.
7) Found out yesterday that the Joker was back in the hospital. Apparently, she'd had a couple seizures, and a stroke. I don't know all the details, but I know she has movement on both sides of her body, and I think was still talking.
8) I keep wanting to call the Gambler, but I keep thinking that I'm going to be interrupting, or honestly, that he's going to be there. I don't think I could comfortably talk with her, if I knew he was around. Everybody seems to think he's just a great guy, but there's something about him that rubs me the wrong way, I sort of get this "insincere" vibe from him. Maybe he just doesn't like me, and I'm picking up on that? I don't know - all I do know is that I don't feel like I can be myself with her, when he's around.
9) Bought my sanding supplies for the kitchen the other night, so tomorrow I can finally get to work finishing the walls. I'm debating changing my scheme just a bit though; rather than doing stainless counter tops eventually, I thought I might go with a 50's style chrome edge on a standard top, then find a small matching table/chair set. Not sure which of those two I'm leaning towards yet.
10) I have a four day weekend, and I'm not going anywhere. I'd like to be heading out of town to visit people, but a) I don't have any "people" to visit, and b) I need to work on my stupid kitchen. I mean, I want to get it done, but why am I wasting my holiday on it? Ugh.
11:27 a.m. - 2012-05-24
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