Headed out to the bar last night, fairly early - first place was so busy there wasn't even anywhere to stand, let alone sit, so I left. 2nd place was much better, but I sat at the bar as the bartender walked right past me 3-4 times without even looking at me. I didn't take this personally (never do, and you'd be surprised how often it actually happens), i just figured it was the universe's way of telling me that wasn't where I was supposed to be, so I left there too. Had a drink at the third place & ran into Huey, who wasn't playing that night, just hanging out. Tried another place, had one drink, knew one person, felt very out of place, left shortly thereafter.
Was heading to the bar by my old place, when I got a call from GRJ. Her b/f had his kid with him last night, so their plans to go out were postponed. She called to invite me to come up & hang out with her, as she was staying in, spinning some vinyl, and having drinks. I told her it was kind of late for me to come up, but she said I could crash up there - it would be like that NYE we spent together a few years back. As I wasn't even close to enjoying my evening to that point, and as I had nothing else to do, I picked up a six pack & headed up. When I got there, she was already rockin' out & more than a bit drunk, but having a good time, so I came in, grabbed a beer, (got a big, lingering hug) & sat on the floor with her to help choose 45's to play. We sat on the floor across from each other for a couple hours, playing a whole range of styles, and every so often, when one of us would stretch out a leg, sometimes the other would as well, and we'd just be sitting there with our feet/legs touching/across each others. It was nice to be able to have that kind of contact without really worrying about whether it meant anything, since I know she has a b/f again. Eventually, we ran through all of the vinyl, put on a mix cd & sat on the couch; I put my hand on her knee, she grabbed my arm & lay her head on my shoulder & we just sat there talking & listening, until she decided she needed to go to bed (too drunk, I think) & I told her to be sure to leave me a warm blanket before she went. She told me no, "you're sleeping in my room with me!". Well, that was a very nice surprise indeed! Again, I knew nothing was going to happen with her, as I know that she's very happy with her b/f, and had been "happy" with him just that afternoon! lol (Is it weird that she can tell me these kinds of things?) Anyway, we went to bed & just kind of curled up together - it was really nice, really... comforting? It felt so good to have someone that close, head on my shoulder, arm across my chest. It was great, for about an hour. Well, let me clarify - I enjoyed being that close with her all night, but it takes me weeks to get to the point where I can fall asleep with someone around, which means... No sleep, for the entire night. And yes, I mean *no sleep* - and of course, she was out right away, as she'd had quite a bit to drink. I had too, surprisingly, a couple drinks down here at the bars, and a six pack, but it didn't seem to help. We got up around 10:30a, and I left shortly afterwards, after getting another hug & exchanging thanks between us for being able to hang out.
She was supposed to see the bf/ later this morning, and then she's going to be heading down to my town to visit her family for the holiday. She said she'd call me when she gets any free time, because she still hasn't seen my new house, so I'm trying to straighten up as much as I can. Well, I think I'm pretty much done - I have to send an email to my sis explaining why I don't want to come out, and then I'm going to start working on patching the holes in the drywall in the bedroom. I really want to get the painting done in there, because I want to move my bed back in there and I'll feel a lot better knowing that I have another room done.
I'm going to head to the store & pick up some Cap'n M0rgan in case I feel like having a few drinks tonight. I had enough beer last night, and I don't really think I'm going to want to go out, although I might. I hope she finds some time to stop by tonight, it'd be good to have some company here finally...
4:54 p.m. - 2011-12-24
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