So I went to the show tonight & had a great time, until I left... I was walking out & there was this girl sitting on the sidewalk crying. I asked if she was alright & after a few seconds, she looked up & said yes. I walked on to my bike & set my stuff down, but I couldn't get past it. I watched her, as people passed & she didn't pay any attention, she just kept crying. i could have put my helmet on & left, but i couldn't bring myself to do it. I walked back to her, sat with her, talked to her. She was dating the lead singer of the final band of the night & she told me he'd decided that he needed to move away & she loved him so much & didn't want him to go. They'd been dating for a few months & obviously, she was totally smitten. I tried to offer some small encouragement, but I'm not exactly mr. smooth when it comes to that. I sat with her for maybe 20 minutes, until the band was done & she got up to (I assume) go meet him. She was quite attractive, and all the moreso due to her vulnerability. She stood up, I wished her well, and went on my way. I hope such a small gesture from a complete stranger meant something to her, insomuch as I hope she will eventually "pay it forward", as it were.
I got a few texts from CC tonight as well, lamenting the fact that she is still feeling ill & couldn't make it out to the show tonight. She thanked me for hanging out & talking the other night, and then said something that surprised me, yet made me fairly happy... She said "And next time, I'd like to request a longer hug"... I told her, essentially, that next time I got the chance to hug her, I wouldn't let go until she did. Her response? "Oh, it's on!"
She still likes me - that's good to know. But am I worth allowing her to want something with me? I feel like a jerk. I feel like, unless I run away, I'm going to end up hurting her. I also feel like if I don't go to bed now, I'm going to make a total ass of myself, so...
good night...
3:00 a.m. - 2010-10-03
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