1) no contact from anyone whom I was expecting/hoping. What do I do? Should I ignore them (my 1st inclination), or do I forgive them for being inconsiderate bastards (once again) & act like it was no big deal, even though I was hurt (once again) by their disrespect/dismissal?
2) I realized a couple things tonight... a) it's a young man's world, and b) Time Waits For No One. Especially me.
3) I caught myself multiple times tonight, beginning to reach out to a few someones, only to second-guess myself & change my mind. Wtf would I say, honestly? "I'm lonely & feel like a whiny bastard would you please talk to me?". It's pitiful that I should have to beg for interaction. If people don't want to talk to me, it's because I'm not important in their lives, and I should accept that. But that means I need to accept that I'm not important in anyone's life (with the possible exception of one person).
4) What is the meaning and/or purpose in life of someone who means little/nothing to others, or who is, at best, an afterthought in their life? I want to be important to someone. I want my life to have some kind of meaning, and right now (and for the past couple of decades), it doesn't; I'm a place-holder, if even that.
5) How many years could you live/get by without love?
12:36 a.m. - 2019-07-07
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