I did better than usual regarding holiday weekends & how they usually end up making me feel - it didn't catch up to me until today & I'm feeling isolated again.
Found out today that the reason I rarely see Viv anymore is because her wife doesn't like the idea of us hanging out. I kind of wondered about it before, but now that I have confirmation, I won't be asking anymore. A similar thing happened with GRJ; I realized that she was avoiding me & eventually figured out that it must have been causing some friction with her b/f, so I'm not asking her anymore either. Since I stopped asking her to hang out, her facespace posts about her relationship have seemed a lot more positive.
What this is really telling me is that I no longer have an active role in either of their lives; I served my purpose & need to move on & find new people, if I can.
If there's one consolation in this realization, it's knowing that I'm still serving the purpose I believe I'm meant for in this life. Small comfort, but it's something.
(p.s. Yes, that title is a movie reference, 10 internet points if you can identify it!)
8:13 p.m. - 2019-05-27
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