Started my new workout/supplement routine on the 2nd (which means no drinking for two months), and I'm already feeling bummed out. Not due to the lack of drinking, but because breweries/pubs have been the only social scenes I've had for years. I tried to go to a friend's gig last night, had a diet coke, but only stayed 45 minutes or so (took almost twice that long to ride there & back). I don't know, I guess I'm kind of feeling lost again, like there's no place I belong.
...and I'm 0-3 with mutual likes on my dating profile. I don't know what I'm doing wrong, unless maybe I'm doing nothing wrong & women just find me unattractive. I think I'll go with that. Being rejected/ignored for superficial reasons is much better than for personality/character issues. Well, maybe not better, but easier to dismiss.
It seems like it shouldn't take years to meet someone with whom you're mutually compatible & attracted. It also seems like, no matter how well I've apparently buried these feelings, they always end up resurfacing. I wish they'd just leave me alone.
11:52 a.m. - 2018-08-05
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