I wrote this back in February (FFS, has it been that long?) and just found it again today. Since it still seems to apply quite a lot, I've decided to post it again. Go back one entry for an update (not that it'll be any more positive than this, but how could it be, honestly?)
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I've had it with people... disrespectful, ignorant, belligerent, antagonistic, incompetent, lazy, belittling, bigoted/(what-have-you)-phobic, self-aggrandizing, self-important, self-righteous, inconsiderate/oblivious, entitled, and/or just plain fucking stupid people.
This shit is everywhere, I literally can't escape it! Not even sitting in my house alone, because I have friends on facespace, and that fucking place is rampant with every single thing I listed - even when I de-friend people & hide posts. And most of that list, I also end up running into at work, and when I go out to venues, and when I listen to the fucking radio, and you know what?
It's made me intolerant. I've put a lot of energy into being accepting of everyone, regardless of race, religion, sexual/gender orientation, etc. and spent a lot of time empathizing with people, trying to put myself in their shoes, and to treat them better than I would want/expect to be treated. That's what pisses me off the most, that these fucking assholes have made me intolerant despite my best efforts. Not intolerant to reasonable human beings, but intolerant of these fuckwits. I'm having a hell of a time trying to justify being friends with people who fall into these categories. We can be friendly when certain topics aren't brought up, but once I learn about whatever shit-ass fucking close-minded bullshit belief they hold dear, I have to wonder why I even talk to them.
How can a person have friends who hold diametrically opposite beliefs? How can one be friends with a person who hates, condemns, dismisses, mocks, ridicules, abuses others who aren't like them? And if a person can't, then how can one get by in life with no friends? (because almost everyone on the planet does it, it seems.)
And how in the fucking hell, out of that tiny, ridiculously reduced 'friendship pool' of respectful, genuine people that is left after removing all of the chaff, can a person be expected to find someone worthy of a relationship, whose not already spoken for?
I think this whole life is a waste of time.
P.S. Oh yeah, and now I'm pissed at myself, because I seem to be able to get all fucking irate over stupidity/close-mindedness, but when we have a mass shooting happen in my home town, I'm apathetic. Wtf is wrong with this world, myself included?
12:03 p.m. - 2016-11-08
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