So the last couple weeks have been pretty big for me.
I stopped by the place I get all my incense/candles/crystals/etc, and they had tarot decks out on the table. I was really drawn to one when I walked by so I asked the woman working there about it. She ended up giving me a free reading. I tend to be really closed off regarding my thoughts/feelings so I was doubtful it'd amount to anything, but in an 8-card reading, every card was spot-on to what I'd been feeling that week - it was eerie! A good eerie, though, and I felt oddly energized/positive for the rest of the evening. It was like it was a sign of good things to come, and that I was on the right track, mentally.
I started this new routine a couple weeks ago (sort of a 'test run' to get used to it again), and I've been feeling really good. Usually when I start back up, not only are my muscles sore, but my bones ache; tendons, joints, spine... I 'officially' started my routine this week, and this is the 1st time in literally years that I can get out of bed in the morning & not have to hobble around until things loosen up. The program is designed to allow for better recovery, and I think that in all the programs I did before I've been basically over-training. My chiropractor even commented on how much easier my last adjustment was, and I've noticed how much more comfortable I feel on a daily basis. Feeling good = more positivity = better outlook on life. It's given me a bit of... courage? Confidence? to try new things.
Week & a half ago at open mic night, I was again talking with one of the artists I know about my nerves re: getting up & playing something. He offered to go up with me as 'backup', but I said we'd really need to practice beforehand for me to be comfortable with that. He invited me to come to his place the next week so we could go over a few songs. Well, last night, I did. I've done two (disastrous) open mic nights before, but this is only the 2nd time I've played & sang for someone solo. I was really nervous, but I decided to just jump right into it, so I started with a song I've known for years. When I was done, he told me I was really good! I have a hard time with compliments, but this guy's a great singer/songwriter, so if he thinks I'm good, I must not suck too bad! I ended up playing another 4-5 songs for him, and he would accompany me when the structure was obvious, adding in some lead notes over my chords sometimes. It was really cool, because that's the 1st time I've played with someone when we both knew what we were doing.
Anyway, he got out some paper & wrote down the chords for each of four songs we decided to focus on, and we're going to meet up again next Wednesday night to practice them again. The goal is for me to get comfortable enough playing with him that he'll 'back me up' at an open mic night pretty soon. I've been wanting to play for Meg_D & that crowd, but have always been scared of fucking it up & looking/feeling like an ass. If we can get this together, I'll be really glad, because if I play well enough, it might lead to me being able to get back in a band of some sort again (if any of the others like what I do). Anyway, I'm pretty excited about it, so that's been another big thing...
And the last good thing just happened today - Viv texted me & told me she had the rest of the money she owed for the car I sold her last year! I stopped down to her work & she gave me a cashier's check for the balance! I'd already signed the title over to her a few weeks ago (due to insurance concerns), so I'm glad to have the transaction completed. We might be hanging out for a bit, either tonight or tomorrow. Not sure if her g/f will be there, but it'll be nice to visit again. I don't have many friends to socialize with.
So, there it is. Feeling good both physically and mentally, trying something new, and got my money - pretty decent couple of weeks!
4:19 p.m. - 2016-02-06
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