Mentally exhausted from trying to talk my grandmother out of her depression. I think I temporarily succeeded, but it was very draining, considering the first thing she said when I got her on the phone tonight was that she just wished she was dead...
Ugh, I can't go into it anymore. Suffice it to say, by the time we were done, we had a few laughs (albeit interspersed with talk of our mutual struggles with depression), and I'd even talked her into being excited about eating a dish of ice cream for dinner! (She's not been interested in eating for a while now, and she struggles to eat much of anything each day.)
Gods, that took a lot out of me. I don't really have a lot of positive energy to spare...
Btw, bench max was tonight, but i went ahead and did some light squats to warm up first. PR on bench, 1st time ever over #200 (managed to get #205). Last time I tested my maxes (almost two year ago I got #195) I decided my next goal was a #900 total for the "big 3" (bench, squat, deads). I'm actually really close, too - based on my first two, #325 squat, #205 bench = #530) I need to pull #370 on deadlift Friday. My max two years ago was 345, so I only need to best that by #25. I think I've got it in me this time, but I guess we'll see.
Next goal will be a #1000 total - that's the big one every serious weightlifter aims for. They even call it the "#1000 club". If I make #900, I'll only have to add #35 to my squat, #25 to my bench & #40 to my deadlift... That's not really that much, especially considering I wasn't training pure strength this time out. I think I need a little more muscle mass before I aim for that though. Weighed myself today & am sitting @ #225 which, considering how much my lifts improved, means I must have lost quite a bit of fat, as I'm only #5 heavier than I was even a few months ago. I'm hesitant to start running again though, because it always tends to interfere with my strength gains, and to be honest, I'd rather be fat & strong than skinny & weak.
Besides, who do I have to be skinny for?
11:54 p.m. - 2015-06-24
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