Crisis averted, I think. Got a couple texts from KW this morning, saying that due to her work schedule, and the issues she's having regarding how she feels about me, she doesn't think we should hang out tonight. She also apologized for "being weird" about things, and explained a bit about what she'd been going through/where her head was at. I think we've turned that "relationship" corner now, but I'm not sure where we stand on hanging out/staying friends. I sent her a reply & just have to wait to see how she responds. Honestly, I do really like her, but If we dropped down to only seeing each other once every month or two, I'd probably be alright with that. I mean, once a week or so would be cool too, but I don't feel a big need to see her all the time, and for a while there, I really did. I think that was the loneliness speaking though, more than anything. Now to figure out how to keep the positive feelings I had during this time so that I've got a better chance to meet someone who's more right for me. I want to believe it can happen, but it's so difficult to believe sometimes...
Although I did miss all my workouts for about a week & a half a while back (stoopid drinking/depression), I've been trying to at least maintain, even though I really haven't wanted to in the least bit. I've been sticking to a minimum of two rather light workouts a week, and think I'm back to being ready for the 3-4 I'd been doing. I might change things up so that I'm doing 5-6 shorter workouts, just focused on one muscle group each day, but I haven't decided yet. My current w/o's take around 1.5 hrs and when I add in getting ready & getting showered/cleaned up afterwards, I'm easily at 2-2.5 hrs of my night being gone, even before I get to dinner. I'm wondering if I change to 30-45 minutes 5-6 days/wk (strongman being the 6th), whether it might be easier. It might, at least, allow me a chance to get out & find some new things to do, if I ever get the nerve, or actually find something worth exploring.
12:25 p.m. - 2014-09-25
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