Well, on the plus side, she texted me this afternoon, and we sent a few messages back & forth over the course of the night - made my day/night! On the minus side, according to her "I'm 21, in college, and my lifestyle is nuts". She thought that might change my mind about wanting to get to know her. In some small way it does (because it's hard to see how any kind of future could come from it), but not enough to stop talking with her. I mean, I'd like to hang out with her at least once & see what the vibe is like, but I have the feeling it'll be a bit odd. On the other hand, we always have some serious chemistry going on whenever we see each other, so who knows!? Looking back, I should have known she was young - that type of job is tailor-made for young college kids. (Hey, I never said I was bright...)
I just wish I could meet someone a bit closer to my age. I don't mind younger, but there's a certain point where all it could ever be is dating, and while that might be a nice change for a while, I think it'll ultimately be unfulfilling.
You know what the problem is? I'm physically attracted to specific types of women; none of them are necessarily similar, but each has specific traits. With this particular type of woman, it's almost impossible to tell how old they are. This girl is small, like, 5', maybe 100#. They *all* look young with that body type! I probably should never have even tried talking with her, but if I'd not tried, I'd have never known, and I would have beaten myself up for not taking the chance. Right?
If only I could find that same instant "eye contact" connection again with someone a bit more age-appropriate. Yeah, "if only" this, and "if only" that, right? Man, I suck at life...
11:47 p.m. - 2014-07-18
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