Finally got back to my workouts last night - cut out the highest weight sets for everything, in order to ease back into it. Felt good to lift again, but I couldn't stop coughing throughout the whole workout. I'm feeling a bit stuffed up again too. I hope it's just from working out in the cold, and not a relapse. I went out for a burger afterwards (because I told the taller waitress I'd visit her) but the bar was packed, so I ended up sitting in a booth again, never did get to talk to her.
Went downtown for a little for St. Pat's (a friend's band was playing) and ran into Meg_D who seemed happy to see me (got a couple hugs at least). I bought her a shot & got myself a diet coke & hung out for the last three songs they played. Didn't get to talk much, and when the band was done playing, she went to talk to her b/f (the bass player), and the rest of the band went out for a smoke. I didn't have a chance to say anything to anyone, so I just left. Was home by 12:15a. Pretty silly waste of time, honestly, but at least I got out for a bit.
I did end up going to the sandwich shop yesterday - she wasn't working the line, but I think I saw her in another part of the shop, although I really couldn't tell. I doubt it matters anyway, I've probably missed my chance with that one. That's what my gut tells me anyway. (I think this illness has tweaked my positivity a bit - I'm not completely bummed out or anything, but I'm definitely a lot less positive than I was for a while. You'll know when I get really bummed out, because I'll probably start drinking again. At least I'm not to that point yet...)
Remember the text message I got a little bit ago that was from the girl I know, but was sent to the wrong guy? Still haven't heard from her about hanging out, so I can write that one off. Oh, I also deleted all of CC's recent emails to me. They're all gone now, and I'm debating adding her address to my blocked list. Really shitty of her to not even give me a reason for not writing back (unless of course, there was an accident, or some family emergency or something, but even then, I would think a month or two would be enough time, so... fuck it.
I heard from Huey Saturday night that Viv had her kid. Apparently there are pics on facespace or something (she's on his friends' list I guess). I'm hoping that now, I won't be hearing from her for a long time, as she'll be busy with the new kid. GRJ texted me about some drama she & her b/f were having this weekend due to him getting out-of-his-face drunk. I replied with generalities & support only, and she apparently appreciated it, so I feel pretty ok about that. Nice to know I'm worth something to someone, yes?
I've been on a Steely Dan kick recently, and I just found a new favorite song. The lyrics are depressing as hell, but it's got a very unique sound - "Charlie Freak" - give it a listen & tell me what you think. (Yes, you too, Stepfie!)
Oh, I'm also taking suggestions for where to go on my vacation this year. Wherever it is, I need to be able to drive there, as I plan on taking the cycle. Any thoughts? I've been considering Key West again, but I don't know how fun that place will be sober. I was kind of hoping for a chance to visit CC, as it's only 16 hrs by car. (Obviously, that shit's not happening now.) I'm not too keen on going anyplace where I don't know anyone, but I may just have to.
12:39 p.m. - 2014-03-18
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