Man, it's been an odd day or so. Cleared out the spare room last night to make room for the new bed I was having delivered. Once I had the futon set up (couch-style) I found that the improvement to my sitting posture for watching tv was immensely better, but unfortunately, I wasn't able to unfold it to sleep on last night (frame issue). Needless to say my sleep was fleeting, and uncomfortable. I was up about an hour before the earliest they were supposed to deliver it, so I had some coffee while waiting. I'd talked to my buddy about not making it (again) for strongman due to the timing of the delivery & he told me that if it got delivered early enough, I should just come out anyway. I was pretty happy about that, as I wouldn't have done that on my own (don't like interrupting things). So anyway, they delivered & set up the bed fairly early & I managed to get out to his place by 10:30a. For not having done much in months, I handled myself surprisingly well - my grip sucked, but with lifting straps I found I haven't lost that much leg strength, and managed to hold my own, so to speak, with the other guys. By the way, I met a new guy today, who's name is the same as mine. Smaller guy, but pretty strong, and seemed pretty cool as well. Man, it felt great to get back to it! Got home about 30 minutes ago, and I still feel really good (although I'm starting to get a headache now!). Time to find/make some good food, see if I can keep at it with the cooking thing.
The weirdest thing though? While waiting for the delivery this morning, I checked my email, and found (as I expected) a "matches" list from my dating profile, but there was another message which I almost marked as spam, due to the subject line. I had to look at it three times before it dawned on me... It was from CC! I couldn't believe it - I even got the little "butterflies" feeling for a moment or two, and I just had to open it. If you've read here for a while, you might remember that we had a sort of "psychic/energy" connection, from the moment we met. Apparently, it hasn't left. She started off with some basics, hi, how are you, etc; told me about a trip she took, her teaching schedule, and such; and about how she'd injured her neck this past Thursday, and had to have a massage to try to correct it. She went on to tell me that, after her time was up, the masseuse asked if she had to leave, or if she could stick around for a while. She stayed, and I guess the masseuse did some "energy work", really light to no touching at all (what I think is referred to as Reiki). This is when she told me that for some reason, unbidden, she saw/felt my presence with her. It surprised her so much, she said, that she "snapped back to reality". She decided to just go with it though, to see what came of it, and after relaxing again, the same thing happened. She described what I would call lucid dreaming, as she could control the images/impressions, until, after a while, the masseuse started moving around a lot & it faded away. I don't recall what else was in it, but her closing said that it felt good to "see me" again, and that she hoped things were well with me.
Now, it's taken me a long time to get to the point where I've stopped dwelling on her, and the mistakes I made, but I did - so much so, in fact, that I didn't even recognize her email address. I still think about her quite often (probably at least once a week), and have been wondering how things are with her, what she's been up to, etc. It took a lot of willpower to not write back as soon as I read it, but I know that I need some time to re-read, to figure out what I want to say. That's where you all come in! To be perfectly honest, I'd love to have another chance with her, although in no way do I expect to get that opportunity. What I really want is to find a way to communicate to her that I'd really like to rekindle our friendship, without coming on too strong or making her think I'm some kind of a weirdo (ok... more of a weirdo than I am!) I could really use some advice on how to approach it.
Obviously, I'd like to say how great it is to hear from her; I'd like to ask about her trip, her job, etc. I'd also like to address the "energy work" that brought her to the point of contacting me again, but I'm concerned that in my efforts to do so, I may become a bit long-winded/overbearing, and run her off. On the other hand, I'm also concerned that if I'm too concise and brief, it might come across as disinterested, which is definitely not the case! And in case you're wondering, yes, I'd be perfectly content to just be friends, if that's how things go. She's an amazing woman and, when she was here, she brought such a positive energy into my life; something I could really use again. As I'm sure I've mentioned dozens of times in the past, I've never, in all of my relationships, felt such an immediate connection as I did with her.
So, in closing...
Help!! :-D
1:33 p.m. - 2013-09-07
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