I haven't been feeling good (in addition to my oh-so-lovely negative emotions) and it's given me more reason to stay in. I went to bed early both Sunday and last night. I noticed something though - I had a beer Sunday evening, and felt like shit shortly after; had one today and had the same thing happen.Went out to buy some real beer (the last two were "miller high life" because they didn't have what I wanted last time). Anyway, they had the beer I wanted today, so I picked it up & had one when I got home. The beer was great (literally the best beer I've ever had, including the ones in Germany!), and I didn't feel that bad afterwards, but after a bit, I did begin to notice a little bit of uncomfortableness. I decided to see how I did with rum, as I haven't had any in the house for, well, since I moved in here. Got some Castillo Silver & diet coke, and am currently sipping on one now. Not sure how I'm feeling - wanted to see if maybe a few drinks at home would help to improve my mood a bit. It's open mic night at the Dog, but I don't want to go, as the band we played with Saturday will be there, as will at least a couple of the people who told me they were going to come to the show. I'm not in the mood to talk with them, but I need to improve my mood if I hope to not be an ass if I run into "the girl" tomorrow night.
Speaking of that, I still haven't heard from her, so I wouldn't be surprised if I fucked things up somehow without fully realizing it, or knowing how. I'm going to go tomorrow in hopes of running in to her, and maybe talking with her again. I want to be in a better/good mood in case she's actually there. I really dig her, but since I don't know her that well, I was really hoping to get a chance to hang out with her somewhere other than a bar, which is one reason I was so disappointed in her cancelling on me.
Now that I'm thinking about it (and now that I've had a couple beers & a drink) I wonder if I should just go tonight & get it over with. I'm going to run into some of those people eventually... On the other hand, I'm half tempted to just go to bed now, and it's only 8:30p.
Well, think I'm gonna go. Maybe I can talk to the other band & see what they thought about the night...
(Why the fuck can I not seem to just stay home? I suck.)
8:52 p.m. - 2012-08-28
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