It's so odd it can't be a coincidence, but there's nothing new about this at all - it's never a coincidence with us...
You'll note that today is the first day in ages that I posted about feeling rally good, really positive. You may also remember that I broke down & wrote to CC when my friend passed away over a month ago (end of August). I wrote, although I knew in my heart that I'd never hear from her, and when I didn't get a reply after a week or two, I pretty much wrote her off. I signed in to my email this afternoon, and was shocked to see an email from her! Basic stuff, a quick explanation that she hasn't checked her old email address since the last time we talked, that she was sorry about my friend, etc.
Also, that she misses me too. She filled me in a little about where she moved, her new place, etc., and gave me her new work email & asked me to write her back there so she wouldn't miss it if I replied to her. She closed again with "hope you're doing well", and then something that really surprised me - last thing she wrote was "i'd kill for a hug from you right now".
It felt so good to see an email from her, and I've read it several times today. I don't know what it is about her, but I can't seem to escape the idea that we're supposed to be in each others' lives somehow. I'm going to wait a couple days before I write back though, to allow the initial excitement to dissipate a bit so that I won't go overboard in my reply to her. I *have* decided, however, that i'm not going to attempt to keep things detached and somewhat impersonal anymore with her. Whatever happens will happen, but at least this time, I want to be as open and direct as I can be.
In the meantime, I'm still on the lookout for a girl around here. I did see "Blue Eyes" again, yesterday (Sat.) this time. Was shopping and she was working. I got in her lane first, but as I was standing there behind 2 other people, the lane next to me opened up, and I psyched myself out thinking that it would be too obvious if I stayed there, so I took the open lane. Got a much better look at her this time, and I'm fairly positive she's in her early-mid 20's. Found out her name as well (finally had the forethought to look at her name tag!) but I think I'm still going to call her "Blue" for now.
Worked out again tonight, although not as much, as I'm pretty sore tonight & my joints are aching. Might try to go for a run before work in the morning, if I can get up & about early enough.
Ok, time for bed - I'm beat! (and still smiling from that email!)
11:08 p.m. - 2011-10-09
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