Found out last night that a good buddy of mine passed away a couple nights ago. The guy was a rock star, at least in his lifestyle - was a time a couplefew years ago when he could have kept up with the best of 'em - ozzy, motley crue, lemmy, keith richards, etc. he was to prison a few years ago, got straight (as straight as he could, which basically means no hard drugs, just liquor/pot, i'm assuming) and he was getting his life back together. Was even planning on going back to school this fall, from what I understand.
He was larger than life, a well known character in town - big drinker, big partier, big karaoke singer (multiple-contest winner), always came across as a really happy guy, but we all knew he had his demons. Nobody who was really that happy would treat themselves the way he did.
I don't really know anything about what happened, other than he went to bed that night & never woke up. Don't know if he'd been drinkiing, or maybe took something, or if he had an underlying medical condition, or hell, his body may have just decided it was done - I don't know.
I hadn't intended to, but I went out last night, back to the pub where we first met & I ordered a shot of southern comfort (the drink I always associated with him) and the cheapest, shortest beer I could get (because he rarely had money, but always needed a chaser). After that, I didn't feel like going home, so I went downtown to the karaoke night there & sang one of his "trademakr" songs for him. There were several of his friends there, who had the same thought, although not many of them sang. a few of us had a couple more shots for him, and I unintentionally closed the bar down. I only got 4 hrs opf sleep last night, and I'm wanting to go home. I'm not hung over, or really all that tired, but I just don't feel like being here.
Oh, and I did something I promised myself I wouldn't do - I wrote to CC; just a short message, about last night and my buddy, and that I missed talking with her & would like to again. (And it's true, even though it's probably bad for me to think/feel that way.) Hopefully, she'll just write it off to emotions about him passing on & won't bother to reply. I have a hard enough time trying to find someone I'd like to date now, it'll be much worse if we start talking again.
Still... I'd like to. *sigh*
RIP, "jesus". You shouldn't be gone yet...
11:40 a.m. - 2011-08-29
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