I think I mentioned having stopped taking my new meds. (Just looked - apparently not). I took one a day for four days, then decided to try two a day (doc said this was fine if I thought they were helping). Only did two a day for three days, then I went back to one. The last three days I was on singles, I noticed I felt pretty good eating breakfast in the morning before I took them, but after taking them, I'd feel kind of flat/dull & unmotivated. The third morning I felt really good at breakfast & decided to stop taking them completely. (Doc had told me to try them for at least a week, and I gave it 10 days.)
Anyway, since I quit them, I've been going to bed earlier & getting up every morning to run 2 miles - managed to do four days in a row so far. I'm not even going to consider getting back into weights until I've kept this up for a few weeks, as I don't want to jump back into it too quick & burn out. I feel a bit better, even though this morning was hell, since I didn't get to bed until about 12:30a & got up at 7a. Even after two cups of coffee & a couple aspirin, I had a headache all through the run, and even still. I don't care, though, I'm trying not to let little things like that stop me!
Anyway, the reason I was in bed so late was that I worked on some of my own "originals" with my drummer, who is also a bass player & singer. I showed him the two full instrumental "chord" songs I had, and then two "chorus-or-verse-only" snippets I'd been playing with. We picked the one he resonated with the most & worked through that one - made some decent progress, too. The last one was a kind of fun progression, and even though we only spent maybe 10-15 minutes on it (compared to the 1-1.5 hrs on the first) it actually turned out just as well. I mean, neither is finished, but I got enough input that I think I have a direction to go with it. I'm going to work on it over the next couple weeks & see if I can develop it into something I can do solo, as well as with a band. Most of what I'm trying to do, I'm aiming at doing solo (meaning guitar-only, and singing; it's all slow to mid strum-type stuff). If I can figure out the basic process to songwriting, I'm confident I can start throwing songs together fairly quickly. My main goal in this would be to get maybe 8-10 songs finished in order to put out a cd. (Drummer is a producer as well, and he could easily record me when I'm ready, and likely for free!)
I finally sent off my fuel injectors for the new car I picked up. They should arrive today, and I expect a call sometime in the next couple days. I have one more bank of spark plugs to change out, then a bunch of vacuum, fuel, & coolant lines, before I can throw everything back together. I also took my truck in to have the gas tank checked/replaced. Tank was definitely bad, and the sending unit looked to be crap as well. They recommended I not only replace the tank, but the sending unit and the fuel pump too, since I already had the tank out & it was no more labor to do so. I agreed, but the total is going to be $700. I have it, and it needed to be done, but damn... Also had them look at my little black car; turns out it needs a half-shaft (cv joint - front wheel drive axle). I might be able to get the part for free if I can find the old receipt, because I replaced it a couple times already, and the part had a lifetime warranty, so I should only have to pay labour on it. Still, that's likely to be $100-200. Also, one of the brake calipers is hanging up, so I'm going to have the shop see if they can just clean it up/make it functional so I can sell it, rather than having to replace that too. That should only cost about $35, unless it's really bad.
Lastly (for now), I contacted my realtor & asked to start looking for houses again. He set me up with a portal, and I should start getting weekly (at least) emails about houses coming back on the market. I've been told that I'll be hired back by January, but I'm still working on getting them to hire me before then. (I could really use some holiday pay, or else I'm going to miss the equivalent of almost three weeks of pay over the next month & a half & that will really hurt.
Oh, and I'm still crushing pretty hard on the gal at work. Turns out, her family & mine have been close friends for decades! Her dad & my uncle (mom's brother) have been "best friends" since they were kids in school! I mentioned it to my ma last night & she was really surprised. I also (unfortunately) told her about my crush, without really realizing it. Now she's trying to think of how she can "mention" it to the gal's dad. *Damnit*!! I mean, I wouldn't mind if it got back to her somehow that I dug her, but really - having your mom & her dad do it? Weak!!! >.< Oh well, nothing to be done about it now. And if it's too embarrassing, it will be really easy to avoid her, because we rarely (if ever) cross paths at work anyway.
She really seems to be perfect for me though. Obviously, I don't know her well, but both my ma & my grandma know her & say she's a sweetheart of a gal. She's pretty much perfect for me physically, and I think she's beautiful (which, for me, is saying a lot - I'm very particular, ask anyone!) Not that it's really going to matter, but I can dream, right? At least it's helping me to get over CC. Speaking of which, I think I'm going to get in touch with her sometime in the next couple weeks - I miss talking to her, and I've hit the point where I'm no longer hung up on her anymore & have accepted that we're not meant to be, so I think we can be friends again. Hope so, anyway - I guess we'll find out when next I see her in person.
Wow, I didn't think I had much to write about, but that came out really quickly/easily! Gotta run - back to work...
10:52 a.m. - 2010-11-18
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