I'm not cut out for this...
CC & I exchanged a few short texts this week, the last one being Friday. The last one I sent had a couple questions in it, one of which asked if she had some free time this weekend, because I wanted to see her. I got no reply, so finally, last night, I sent her an email asking 1) if she was alright, and 2) if so, why she hadn't written back. Got an email from her this morning, essentially saying she doesn't want to pursue anything beyond friendship at this point, that she needs more stability/less fear, and doesn't think it's right for her right now.
I replied with a fairly long, fairly open (for me) email, basically telling her that I understood, but that it really made me sad to hear that. Essentially, I've already started to open up to her, and I'm not going to shut it off again just yet. Told her that if she changed her mind in the next few weeks, I'd be around. I find myself really hoping she changes her mind, which is different for me - usually, I'd have just written her off and moved on.
It's odd/funny... I miss her already.
(Btw, get this - horoscope stuff again...
That internal tension you're feeling could all too easily translate into an irresistible urge to: a) unceremoniously quit your job; b) tell off that unappreciative fool you're seeing or c) move to Sri Lanka (or anywhere you're sure no one knows your name). What to do? Try some exercise (mental or physical)!)
In other news, I found out what was wrong with the (new) car I bought. (Did I mention that yet?) Started running rough, so I did some tests - turns out, at least half of the fuel injectors are either bad or going bad. Parts cost alone? Estimated at approx. $200 each. In order to get to them, the top of the engine (the plenum, for you tech-savvy people) needs to be removed.Thing is, once the upper end stuff is off, I might as well have the spark plugs changed as well. The estimated time on changing spark plugs alone on this car is between 6-8 hrs for a certified mechanic. I'd guess another 4 hrs for labor on the injectors. So I'm estimating at least10-12 hrs labor @ approx. $90/hr, between $800-1000 in injectors, maybe $80 for the (special) spark plugs, plus the cost of various hoses (and there are several! thesmallest "kit" I can find runs almost $300) Also might need an EGR tube @ $200. Adding all that up, I was looking at anywhere between $2-3000 to have it fixed.
I decided that, with the help of an online forum I found, I'm going to try it myself. That will cut my costs down by at least $1200, I'm hoping that the fuel rails/injectors can be cleaned/rebuilt, which might reduce my costs even more. The spark plug job alone would have been around $800, and now I can get that done for maybe $80. I can clean the Throttle Body, EGR, and IAC myself and save a bunch more. Only problem is, I'm stuck right now. I can't get the plenum completely off - there are maybe a couple hoses/wire connections I can't figure out how to remove, and it's pissing me off! :-P I'm heading back down to the garage right now to see if I can make any progress.
Oh, yeah, and my band blew up the other night. big argument over stupid shit, the guitarist is a stubborn ass, & I grabbed my shit & left. The other guy & I are still cool, but I don't think we'll all be playing again, so now I'm looking for some other people to jam with.
Oh, yeah, and one of the promising jobs leads I had, essentially decided that I would be too much of a risk to bring on, but didn't have the decency to call & let me know. The recruiter didn't even tell me, I had to call them after a week or two. (In his defense, he said he just found out that day. I think he was bullshitting me, but who knows?)
This week has really been a fucking piece of shit. Just about the time I could really do with having someone to lean on, she tells me she's done. I actually almost cried at work when I read her mail. Fortunately, I'm inherently emotionally repressed, and managed to keep it all in.
Of course, now that I think of it, if that hadn't been the case, she likely wouldn't have decided that way, would she?
Ugh.
7:08 p.m. - 2010-10-18
My profile
Archives
Notes
Email Me!
Random
others:
loveherwell
dangerspouse
catsoul
alethia
annanotbob2
life-my-way
fairybones
misfitstray
swordfern
warpednormal
elusive-you
lust-
comebacktome
ahopeinhell
silver4
kelsi
stepfordtart