So...
I've got a pretty bad crush on a girl from work. She's in another department in the front offices, but was out here last week (with a few others) helping to prepare for a "big-wig" visit. I can't decide which of two words describes her better - gorgeous, or adorable. They both fit, yet both seem a bit lacking in descriptive power. I'm seemingly unreasonably attracted to her - she's short, petite, well-proportioned, and has the cutest face I've seen in a while (that includes CC). She's got a beautiful smile, too; the few times I've actually seen it, it just completely brightened my day, and the first time I was on the receiving end of one, it actually changed my mood/attitude about life.
No, I'm serious!! It made me realize that, yeah, even though the CC thing seemed so perfect, yet didn't work out (and that really messed with my head), that right here was proof that there are other women I'm attracted to even moreso. In a way, that single smile restored my hope. The problem I'm having today though? She was in a company-wide meeting today, and I walked out fairly close behind her. Fortunately, I was far back enough that I could watch her walk without coming across as a creep, but damn... I mean, I've seen some women who walk with style, a certain sway, but this was hypnotizing! I still can't get it out of my head and it's been almost an hour. In fact, it's been bugging/distracting me so much, that I just had to write about it, to see if I can get it out of my head enough to get back to work today.
Thing that bothers me though, is that the more attracted to someone I am, the more "intimidated" by them I become. That, and the fact that 1) we work at the same place (even though I'm not technically employed by the same company) and 2) she'd obviously a bit younger than I am, make me pretty much terrified of saying anything to her. I'd absolutely love the opportunity to get to know her better, because if she's anywhere near as amazing as her smile, she'd be the perfect catch.
Why must I be such a coward!? >.<
In other news, my phone interview went really well (for the local company), and the engineering manager (with whom I spoke) is supposed to call me again at the beginning of next week to see if we can schedule a convenient time to meet. I'm both excited and hesitant about this opportunity - excited, because it would be full-time with benefits & OT, and likely better pay than I made before. The possible negative is that they're scheduling 50hr weeks (10hr days, 5 days/wk, with possible Sat. work). I'm not sure how I feel about all that consistent overtime.
On one hand, I really don't want to go down that road. I value my time, and I have a lot of things I'd like to do with my time, and I'm concerned I won't have the energy to do things if I'm working 50-60hrs a week. On the other hand, if I was to do this for a year or two, I could *really* save up a lot of bread. Also, if I take this job (if they offer it, of course) I'll be able to eventually get out of this house, and into something cheaper, which means even more money saved. That might even enable me to get a newer car. I could get rid of the truck, because I won't need it for hauling firewood. I could finally get to work on the old car I've been wanting to restore, and so many other things I've put off due to money constraints. SO, overall, I'm torn, but still leaning towards taking it if offered. (depending, of course, on the actual offer - pay bennies, vacay, bonuses, 401k, etc...)
Oh, and I got the honda battery charged back up & tried to start it tonight. No problems whatsoever. WTF!? No obvious electrical problem at all. I'm withholding final judgment until tomorrow morning, when I'll check to see if the battery's dead again. If not, it's going back up for sale. Also, if it's ok, I'm going to take it to the east side this weekend. It's my sis's kid's b-day, and later that night, I'm supposed to hang out with the Joker for a while. I'm kind of curious to see how that goes.
Lastly, I still need to write about something, but right now, I can't even remember the nickname I used to use for the person involved, so I'm going to have to postpone it again. It's pretty freaking weird though.
How's that for suspense!? ;-)
8:40 p.m. - 2010-09-22
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