Un-fucking-believable...
So I finally meet someone I really dig, and I'm going through the stress of discussing my possible job opportunities, and how it means I may have to move to the east side of the state. I'm really torn about it, because a) I'd really like to stick around & see how this turns out, but b) I really need a good job with benefits, and I'm more likely to fond that out east. It's only a couple hours drive to get back here, and she knows I'd be happy to do it; that it wouldn't interfere with my plans of getting to know her better & everything that entails.
So I finally get to a point where I think I'm ok with that situation, and I get a double whammy today... Got a call from a headhunter I've been working with, and the local job possibility he had for me is a bust. They want somebody with *specific* experience I don't have (even though I'm sure my skills would translate quite easily). It was the only local job lead I had, so I'm kind of bummed. Then, I get a text from my German buddy, asking me if I'd like to do the same work he does!? Apparently, his company is interested in me for an HVAC job. He sent me some details, and it sounds like a pretty good opportunity, although not ideal. I still need to check into living expenses, etc. but it does sound very doable.
So now, I'm looking at a great chance to live and work in Germany, which I've been wanting to do for ages, and I ought to be really excited for it, but I'm not. it would mean giving up on a chance with a great gal here. Thing is, I don't know her well enough to just say "fuckitall, I'm staying", yet the Germany job isn't so amazing that I can say "fuckitall, I'm going!".
At this point, nothing is firm - everything's still up in the air, so I don't have to worry about it right now, but it's in the back of my mind. I've always talked about openness & honesty in relationships, so it makes me wonder; do I bring this up to CC right away, or not bother her with the stress until it becomes more of a firm possibility? If I hide it and we get closer, it'll just be more difficult if I go. If I tell her now, however, she may withdraw and I won't get to know her better, even if I *don't* go. Bottom line - if it wasn't for CC, I'd jump all over this Germany thing - right now, though, I'd rather be jumping all over her! *grin*
Help!?
8:04 p.m. - 2010-08-04
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