Apparently, I can drink again. 3 pints, and 2 12oz pours tonight, and I've managed to ditch the entirely discouraging feeling that's been pursuing me for the last couplefew days. Same as yesterday, although I only had 3 pints then. (Due to the stress, I've also skipped two workouts this week, but I honestly don't care. I think this month is a throw-away - maybe I'll try to start up again in a couple weeks? Then again, maybe not, because... why?)
Anyway, when you have no one to interact with, you need some way to shut your mind off, or help you forget about the issues that are plaguing you. I've needed this. It's not healthy, and it's not ideal, but if it's between that and having an ASD meltdown, guess which I'm picking?
I'd written more about my thoughts on the future, but honestly, it was depressing, and would likely have made anyone reading this uncomfortable, so I deleted it. I tend to do that a lot, and it makes me wonder again if maybe I should just switch to my other journal for that kind of thing, and lock it so no one knows the ridiculous, sad thoughts that go through my mind.
I mean, after all, there's a reason I created it in the 1st place...
9:25 p.m. - 2023-08-08
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