Mood hasn't improved (nor has my congestion, much), but at least I'm not dwelling on things like I was.
DJ's band is doing an x-mas gig at PPB this evening (in 20 minutes, actually) but I can't decide if I want to try to go or not. I'm sick of being alone in this house, not talking to anyone, but I don't know that I feel up to talking to/being around a bunch of people celebrating either, and since I still don't feel well, I likely shouldn't drink. That makes socializing even more difficult, so, I'm torn.
Stay home yet another night by myself, or drive a total of 1.5 hrs to sit in a room full of boisterous revelers with whom I'll probably have little patience, just on the off-chance that I might run into someone interesting/fun, especially since I'm still not feeling my best?
Maybe I'll compromise & go to the well for a bit - it's only 5 minutes away, but there's no band/celebration.
Man, I wish I had friends here.
Oh, and I was hitting 'random' on my journal just now & came across this post & realized it's a pretty good explanation of how I've been feeling again. Not exactly, mind you, but enough to be a valid reference.
7:38 p.m. - 2019-12-21
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