This week has gone well, physically, but has sucked on a personal/emotional front.
Lifting/running are going well, I'm getting thinner (but not any lighter), and I managed to adjust the trouble spot on my spine by myself. My back has felt great ever since, so I'm pretty pleased with that.
On the personal front, I realized that contrary to my previous belief, I actually *am* able to be offended. Without getting into specifics, my ma & sister reacted to learning about a decision I made, with this condescending, patronizing attitude, essentially treating me like a little kid, and trying to shame/guilt me into changing my decision/behavior to comply with what they felt was right, rather than respecting my choice. I left immediately, and was so disgusted with the whole event, that I couldn't even bring myself to go to my cousin's wedding last night - I couldn't stand the thought of being around those two at all.
It would have been so much easier to just give in & conform, but honestly? Fuck that. I sent a text to my ma this morning in reply to one she sent, in which she said she didn't understand why I 'stormed out' the other night. I replied with essentially what I wrote above, but included a bit about them needing some self-reflection on their religion's 'judge not lest ye be judged' saying, because essentially that's exactly what they did. I'm not even mad at them anymore, just a bit disgusted & fed up. I don't know when I'll contact them again, but it's going to be a long time - I refuse to allow that kind of behavior in my life. Seriously, I'd rather be alone.
... in order to keep this from getting way too long, I'll continue in another entry.
6:20 p.m. - 2019-08-03
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