Turns out Swordfern was on to something... Aside from the energy drain of socializing so much this past weekend, it seems the snow shoveling did a number on my upper back (guessing left side T2-T4 area?). Something is really out of place, as I'm having a hard time turning my head all the way to the left (meaning, I can't turn it *all* the way, maybe just half). It's probably what was causing my headaches/pain too, and why I've been having trouble focusing on anything more than following my daily routine.
Thing is, snow shoveling never bothered me that much when I was lifting. I'd been trying to put it off until February, but I decided that it's not in my best interest to do so, so last night, I started up the workouts again. This time though, I'll be really backing off of the volume; cutting reps per set practically in half, and also doing fewer sets. I really think I've been out-working my ability to recover. Some of the weights I did last night felt easy, and they were some of the same ones I struggled with when I was lifting consistently. Anyway, I'm going to try to aim more towards strength training, rather than growth & see how it goes for a while.
I'm still a bit burnt out, but the weights seemed to help a bit. I also made it for a run again tonight, 1 mile, non-stop; that's two in a row! Was still pitifully slow, but I'll take any progress I can get. I've been going to bed about an hour early every night to try to recover from this past weekend, but it doesn't seem to be helping as much as I thought. I'm still having a hard time staying asleep all night, and waking up in the morning. I'm better than I was though, so maybe I just need to be a bit more patient?
Also, I honestly don't know if I'm going to be able to do any more of the cold shower challenge this month. I'm feeling a lot of internal resistance to it right now. If I don't, I'll probably start it back up next month. That'll be a consistent schedule of 4 weeks = 1 month, rather than the stupid Jan 5th start I got this month. I need to find some way to make it a habit, but I don't shower every day in the winter, as it dries out my skin too much. So anyway, I'm not sure what to do about that.
As an aside, it turns out the Gambler's going to be here in a week or so with my aunt/uncle & cousin (her brother), without her husband/kid. I'm torn between looking forward to seeing her again, and not wanting the reminder. I'm really not sure how I should approach the situation. It may be best to just be amicable & pretend those thoughts don't exist. I think I can get by seeing her once or twice for the next 10 years or so...
4:55 p.m. - 2019-01-23
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