I'm really too weird to understand. I've been having a terrible time of it recently, and yet, for some reason, today I wrote a gal I'd messaged a few weeks ago on a dating site & asked if she'd be free to meet this week. I offered to travel there, as she's an hour or more away. I'm not sure why I decided to, or what I expect, honestly... maybe I needed to try something different, and this seems safe. She's far away, and has kids, which are two things that will make it easier on me if nothing comes from it. On the other hand, she's really cute, and seems really cool/interesting as well, so there's at least a possibility of something (otherwise, I probably wouldn't have bothered).
Also, in a way, it's kind of like a trial run for me. I haven't dated in so long, I'm likely to screw something up, so it's best that I do so in a situation that's not so important to me (meaning I'm not putting pressure on myself about it). There are two other gals here in town I'd like to ask out, but those feel to me like higher-pressure situations, if that makes sense. Anyway, I guess this will be a good 1st experience (not 1st ever, but in years) with meeting someone from the online world, specifically in a dating situation.
I also had a pretty vivid dream about CC contacting me again; I even woke up believing it had happened. It didn't take long to realize my mistake, but it felt good for a moment.
After doing some online research, I can't find any law that states a cycle headlight must be on at all times in my state, so I'm going for a ride again in a few. I've ordered my part and it should be in tomorrow sometime. Hopefully, it'll be easy to swap out.
I'm supposed to meet Viv sometime tomorrow for lunch or something, too. Originally, I'd really wanted to, but now I'm unsure. I'll go anyway, unless she cancels, but I wonder how I'll react. There's no telling, with the way my mind has been running recently.
1:34 p.m. - 2018-09-05
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