Decided to log in to my old facespace account last night. I had the feeling I'd forgotten to delete things before I deactivated it, but it turns out I hadn't.
I did, however, find a message from an old crush (hair stylist) that was sent back in October. It was nothing but a picture of the two of us from years ago. (Actually, it was a picture of her computer screen with the image on it.) I was happy to see it, for about 15 seconds or so, then I got sad. For years, I've somewhat regretted not asking her out instead of Viv. She was much more my type, and I think we would've gotten along much better. I always got the impression that she wasn't into me at all, and I found out (many years later) that she thought exactly the same about me; that I didn't like her at all. Kind of funny how those things go, isn't it?
Anyway, I sent her a message from my new (anonymous-ish) account (including the pic), but I imagine that since we're not on each others' 'friends' list, that she probably won't see it. I'm debating whether to send her a friend request, or maybe even just text her to let her know I sent it. I'd like her to know I think of her as well, but on the other hand, I wonder, "to what end"? We have nothing in common anymore (aside from possibly still being attracted to one another), and we don't really have anything to talk about. She's married with 3 kids & a large church community/family, I'm single w/no friends (around here) and no religious leanings. About the only thing we'd have to talk about is the past & why bother dredging all that up again?
On the other hand, I haven't talked to her in months, and it'd be nice to catch up w/her again.
Well, I'd better get to cleaning the house, haven't done it in a while & the place is a mess. Hopefully it'll keep my melancholic nostalgia at bay, at least until I get to Huey's show tonight.
11:36 a.m. - 2018-04-14
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