Was out on a ride today to the lakeshore because it was a beautiful day & I couldn't help myself. Got there, found a parking spot, walked out to the pier & back, & started to head home. I was very tempted to turn right about halfway home & visit the pub where the most recent 'short-haired girl' works, to get some dinner, but I talked myself out of it. I really would've liked to talk with her again, but to what end? Practice-flirting? That doesn't seem nice. Maybe it'd be fun & innocent, but maybe it'd be misleading, and I know I wouldn't be pleased if I were being mislead, so I came home.
Now, I'm trying to figure out what to do for dinner. I want to go out somewhere, but I don't want to drink, or be in a typical bar situation, so I don't know what to do. All of the other choices are either fast food, or relatively expensive restaurants & I'm not crazy about either of those ideas as well. I could make the last frozen pasta meal I have, but I eat that all week & I kind of want something different.
Used to be, this is when I would say 'fuck it', go to the bar & start drinking. I still sort of feel that way, but I don't want to do that.
Truthfully, I just want to find a few quality people to include in my life. At that point, I imagine I wouldn't have these solitary issues. I say imagine, because I really don't know what people with friends do on a regular basis.
6:16 p.m. - 2017-08-19
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