It's New Year - a time of revelation & new beginnings... I mention this because I had a couple phone calls tonight that made me nervous (and therefore, I didn't answer them), but that I relate to someone wanting a fresh start, or to make amends...
As far as I can recall, I've never had a call pop up as 'Private Number', but I had two in a row tonight. There's only one person I can think of who has my number that might try that; KW. I don't want anything to do with her (and honestly, even if it wasn't her, I don't answer numbers I don't recognize). It's the only thing that fits though. There's nobody else I know who would call me that way, especially at that time of night. The interseting thing about 'Private Number'? There's no record of my having received a call tonight from that name, even though they called twice, so I can't even verify when it happened. It's not listed at all in my recent calls. My only guess is that maybe she's back in an institution of some sort & was trying to call from there. Is there a way for a private individual to block their number & make it say that? I don't know... Regardless, it made me nervous, and now I'm going to be even more hesitant to answer a call from a number I don't know.
Anyway, Huey was playing a gig tonight @ the Dog for it's 'birthday' - I never did hear anyone say how old the Dog is now, but... I haven't seen him in months, and when introducing me to his new girl, he said that even though we don't see each other much, I was his 'best friend'. Weird. Don'[t get me wrong, I like him, but the idea that anyone who hasn't seen me for months would consider me his best friend just strikes me as odd. Maybe he had too many drinks, maybe it was the rush of just having finished hit set, I don't know, but it was unexpected to say the least.
I talked to a few other people I knew (musicians) as I knew many of the band members playing tonight. Also, one of the owners told the door guy that I was good to come in with no cover, which I guess means I'm a regular!? It was appreciated, but again, weird. I don't understand why people like me - I'm quiet, distant, evasive with life-details, and usually depressed (when I go out - depression's why I drink, after all) - why would anyone consider me a friend, let alone a 'best friend'? I was flattered, don't get me wrong, just confused by it. To be honest, I'm constantly surprised that people even think twice about me. Socially, I really don't have too many redeeming features.
Yeah, I think I'll stop there. Wanted to write more, but it's just whiny crap about being single again, and CC stuff, which nobody gives a shit about, so I'll stop here.
Happy New Year everyone! Hope things are well with you all!
12:37 a.m. - 2016-01-02
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