Since October 23rd, I haven't been to the pub, and a week or so after that, I stopped going out for breakfast & lunch. Saves me money & is much healthier, but it's also been very limiting regarding my social interactions. I'm having a hard time figuring out what to do with myself now that I'm on vacation. I've gone to a few shows, but they always discourage me. I've drank much more often than I should, but it's really my only coping mechanism, since I don't have any close friends around. It's either, sit in my house watching re-run tv shows/movies & try to ignore feeling so alone, or go somewhere in hopes of finding meaningful conversation, which never happens.
On the home front, the doors have been installed, and they've made quite a difference. Only have a few drafts now to correct; around a couple windows, and a couple in the basement. I've also painted & cut the boards so I can install the new light above the kitchen sink, just need to buy short screws and eight angle brackets to mount them. The wiring shouldn't be an issue. I've got to finish painting the window trim before I can install it though. Speaking of painting, I got one wall of the living room painted (still needs a second coat), but I really like the color - two more walls to go. Hope to get them done this week sometime. I also took the console radio in to get serviced. They're going to clean up the knob contacts so it's not all 'scratchy' when turned, and hopefully figure out the volume imbalance between the record player, radio & external 8-track player. Hope to have that back in the next few days.
My bio-cuz had his 'holiday party' last night and invited me over. It started around 5p, but I didn't get there until maybe 7:30p or so. Mistake. There were probably 15-20 people there, and every single one of them was drunk to some extent (most were bombed), and many were high as well. They were all having a great time, which was amusing to watch, but the whole scene was chaotic, and obnoxiously loud, and I could only stay for about an hour & a half (not an introvert scene!). I was supposed to meet up w/Viv t some point last night, a she was out with her g/f for her b-day (which is today). I sent her a text before I left the x-mas party, but she said they were having trouble finding a good place to hang because everywhere they went by that point had been way too crowded. She told me that she'd let me know if they found a place they'd be staying at for a while, but i never heard back from her. I thought I'd have a text from her when I woke up today, but nothing yet. I expect maybe I'll hear from her sometime in the next week or so.
Oh, I also got my blue-dot lights installed on my motorcycle last week, after having them in the garage for several months (pic is not my bike). Finally got the adapter ring ordered, and since it was still unseasonably warm, decided to get that done. They look great, and the light output it much better that the old ones. I took the cycle to the party last night, which was only a couple miles away. It was cold (25°F), but the main roads were clear, so I figured, "Why not?". Turns out the side road they live on still had snow/ice on it from the previous day's lake effect storm. Wasn't bad, but I definitely had to be cautious stopping & turning. Thought about going downtown since I was already out, but figured since I hadn't heard from Viv & didn't check to see if anything was going on, it'd be best to stay home & just be disappointed, rather than going out & ending up drunk & disappointed. Think it was a smart move. Feeling alone when you're by yourself is understandable/acceptable - feeling alone when you're out & surrounded by people, many of whom you know, is just depressing.
11:34 a.m. - 2015-12-20
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