Fuck.
Drove all the way down to the machine shop to pay for the engine so my buddy could pick it up this week, and neither the manager, nor the machine shop guy deigned to tell me that they wouldn't be there today. I even told the machine shop guy when I talked to him last Thursday that I'd be coming down today - he didn't say a damn word.
120 mile round trip for nothing. *sigh*
At least I've got another week to get more organizing done in the garage. Going to Menard's after lunch to buy a steel rack unit so I can try to get a bunch of shit off the floor & regain some floor space. Bought a hoist Friday & assembled it that night, so now that's taking up space, which is another reason I need the rack. At least it's foldable, so I'll be able to store it against the wall easier.
Not sure if I mentioned it, but I've been having a couple beers at home on occasion, and it's not really a problem. I think the issue I had Halloween night was that I'd been out with Viv, and that always seems to throw me for a loop - not because I want to be with her (I don't, at all) but because it reminds me of how it used to feel when I had someone. That was the issue that night, anyway... and i think that's my issue when I go out to the bars/venues too. I always start the night hopeful that maybe this time I'll meet someone cool, and every time I don't, it makes me feel like shit. Expectations. That's one of my biggest problems. I haven't been out to any of my regular places since that night, not even my regular weekend lunch stop. I did go downtown Friday after work to see Meg_D & Delilah DeWylde play at the museum (they have a once-a-month thing down there), and that was enjoyable. I came back home to grab some dinner & had considered going out again, but ended up staying in, which was probably a good choice. I just don't need it.
I've been trying to think of things to do rather than go out, and I remembered that I used to draw a bit, so I'm considering turning my spare room into an activity room of sorts; moving out the futon & finally setting up my music recording equipment, finding/building an adjustable table/shelf on which I can draw, etc. I don't have any training, so drawing takes forever, but that's a good way to kill time, I guess. And if I can finally start to learn how to record things musically, maybe that will give me some confidence to get back into the music scene as a player, not just an aficionado. Then again, I might find that I really suck, and then I can finally give up on that "dream"! :-P
Ok, lunch is done, guess I'll head off to the store.
3:23 p.m. - 2015-11-07
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