2nd today...
So I've been thinking about myhaving asked that girl out & I'm realizing just how big a deal that really is for me. Of the girls I've ever dated for at least a few weeks, I wasn't the instigator in *any* of them; One was set up by a friend of mine, threee were set up by friends of the girls, and the rest of them were started becuase they made the first move (except for maybe CC - with her it was sort of mutual). So I've been trying to figure out how many women I've actually asked out in my life, regardless of whether we ended up dating or not.
This has taken me quite a bit of thought, but I honestly can only think of three (unless you count inviting the cute waitresses for a motorcycle ride - I don't); a friend of Meg_D's a year or two back, the sandwich-shop girl, and this last one. Like, seriously, that's it. And I'm not exactly a teenager, I've been around a while. And these have all happened within the last year or two. And I'm 0-3 now. *sigh* On the plus side, the last two were asked without the benefits of any "liquid courage", and this last one I never even got very nervous about (just disappointed), which is impressive considering how stupid I was about SSG.
Truthfully, I'm still a bit disheartened that this girl wasn't single, but my mind has done this weird thing now, where I keep thinking that will change, and I'll be hearing from her in the future. Pretty fucken funny, isn't it? Logic tells me I'm an idiot for even thinking that, but I figure as long as it keeps me in a positive mind frame then what's the harm? And really, if I'm going to pine over someone, it probably should be her - really sweet, really genuine, fantastic smile, and this weird combination of adorable and sexy! If I can ask a girl like her out, I should be able to ask anyone!
At least, that's what I'm going to try to keep reminding myself... *rollseyes*
7:39 p.m. - 2015-01-20
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