I told her last night while we were discussing/arguing about something, that even if we got together, it would never be a long-term thing for me. A few minutes later, teary-eyed, she told me that we couldn't even be friends anymore (because it would hurt too much). We spent an awkward hour or so after that, finishing our meal then walking back to the bike, trying to find something to say. Lots of silent tears and hesitant hugs later, I left her at the bar up the street from her house, because she wanted to continue drinking, and I went home.
It's dumb, I mean, we never really even got that close, but I feel empty. We couldn't even make it through the rest of the night (once I got home) without texting, even though the texts were short & awkward. There were too many warning signs, and I know it's the right thing, but it's only been a day & I really fucking miss her. Can't believe I'm never gonna see her again...
P.S. I hate crying.
11:48 a.m. - 2014-09-27
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