As expected, SSG didn't show up, and didn't contact me the night of the show. No big deal, really, just thought I would take a chance. Saw her Monday, she was still friendly, etc. so all's cool, it seems. Regardless of that, it was a pretty good show, although the turnout kind of sucked. I think it's a venue problem, more than anything to do with the band. I don't care for the place, and I think many people feel the same (the place doesn't serve food, and all they have is craft beer and cans of pop to drink). FFC is supposed to be playing Lou's soon, so hopefully that will have a much better turnout.
Ran into KT at Lou's the next night. She'd been working all day & couldn't make it out for a ride when I contacted her, but wanted to go later that night. We got to talk a little bit, but the ride fell through. I told her I'd be around the next afternoon if she still wanted to go, but never heard from her. It's got to be something I'm doing, the reason nobody ever gets back to me; just wish I knew what it was...
Neither of these really got to me much though. As I already said, I pretty much expected those results, and wasn't surprised. What did surprise me (although in retrospect, I guess it shouldn't have) was GRJ's belated b-day party. Was a decent time overall, aside from the fact that I'm not drinking now, and as I've mentioned before, everyone else was both smoking and drinking (big 420 crowd). It wasn't bad though; I got to talk with some of them, there were a couple bands that played (and wow, the 2nd & 3rd bands were shitty!!). They were so bad, I had to walk away several times. Anyway, I was doing pretty well, even though I was feeling a bit "outside" the circle as I usually do, until I was ready to leave. Went to say goodbye to GRJ, put my arm around her while she was talking to someone, and she slid under my arm & sort of curled into me, put her head /arm on my chest, and it reminded me of how things used to be with us. I, of course, got immediately sad, not so much for what we had (although that was a part of it), but because I realized just how much I miss that kind of intimate familiarity, which underscored the fact that I don't have it, and haven't in so very long, and it really messed with my head. In fact, it's still bothering me a bit, but I'm doing my best to ignore it.
9:50 p.m. - 2014-07-30
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