Well, there's a lot to write about, but I'm not sure I want to get into all of it...
...
Eh, fuck it, might as well.
So, of the last couple deleted entries, one was a post about (among other things) thinking it would be cool if I could plan out future vacations/trips to include meeting up with anyone on here who might also like to meet. I removed it because I thought to myself "Yeah, right, who's going to want to meet up with you!?" and I felt a bit silly. What can I say, I get a bit self-conscious and self-effacing. *shrug*
The other one was about a couple of messages I got on a dating site. Sent a couple replies to the first, but not much clicked. The 2nd one, we sent a total of 22 messages back & forth, but the gal was really... secretive? hesitant? She was feeling a bit tired and therefore , in her words, a little "belligerent". I eventually told that since she was so hesitant, I'd let her go & she could rest up, think about our talk & decide whether to contact me again or not. She didn't even reply to that message, and I never heard from her again. Probably a good thing, as I was getting a weird vibe from her. She complained about the site being only for people wanting to "hook up", she complained about my lack of clear pictures, a few other things... Still, it was fun for a minute to pretend that someone was interested in me!
I did text KJ last week (Wednesday?) to see how she was coping with her ex's passing. She said she was still "out of sorts", but thanked me for checking up on her. I made a comment (can't remember the wording now) about how some people preffered isolation when dealing with emotions like this, and that I didn't want to intrude, but I told her I'd be sending positive energy & she replied that she was thankful for that and it meant more than I knew. I'm guessing she's not taking it well, which concerned me. I remember when my dad died, there was a guy I worked with who asked me, maybe a month afterward, how I was doing, and that really stuck with me, as it was something not many people would do, and it really made me feel good. I sent another quick text tonight, just basically saying "hope all's ok", but I won't send another. I'm a little concerned that maybe I shouldn't have, but I don't know anything abut etiquette, so I just decided to follow my feelings. (warning: defense mode ahead) Fuck it, I am who I am, people will like me/appreciate it or not...
Third week of the work golf league. 1st week, 53 for 9 holes, 2nd week, 47! This week, I can't remember, but was either 53-54. Next week will be better. Or not.
Dropped my truck off to the body shop for paint repair & a new windshield, so I've been driving the "new" Buick this week. It rides really nice, but I think it needs new front shocks, because it seems a little "floaty". Will have to take it in when I get the truck back.
I figured out that 2500 calories per day is nowhere near enough for everything I want to do. I tried it for a couple weeks, but I just ended up getting weak. I do feel pretty thin though! Anyway, I'm bumping it up to around 3000. I'm lifting M-W-F, golf on Tues, and either running (ok, jogging/walking) or biking on Thurs & maybe Sun. Oh! And strongman on Sat. OH!! And I bought a new mountain bike a couple days ago. I got a R4leigh T0kul - haven't had a chance to ride it yet, other than the parking lot at the shop. I got the bike, a water cage, an adjustable head stock, an upgraded seat, riding shoes, and gel cushioned gloves. I spent way more than intended, but I figured since I haven't bought a new mountain bike in decades, it'll cost average out to maybe $50-100 per year, and I can live with that. Anyway, I'm looking to start riding, rather than running, until I can get my strength back up in my legs. I used to ride 20-30 miles 5 days a week, but that was years ago. I'd like to get back to 5-10 miles a couple times/week, and I still want to run a 5k or two this season, but the strength needs to be primary, because I feel like a little bitch around the other strongman guys, and it's only getting worse!
Ok, time for sleep. That was way more than I intended to write...
11:23 p.m. - 2014-05-20
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