Supposed to have an appointment with my psych tomorrow, but I just called to cancel it. I got to thinking about it, and there's really nothing about which I'd like/need to talk. When I think about the few things I might discuss, I can already hear the responses I'll get from him, and what's the point of going through that and spending money just to hear what I already know!? Meh...
I did some digging, and it seems that I've gone out twice in the last three weeks. 8/25 is the last one I wrote about, and I know I went to an open mic on a Wednesday for Meg_D, and hit a show with FFC, the R3al F4ntastlcs, and a new band I just found called the J3t B3ats. Really good early- to mid-60's style brit-pop cover band, with several original songs as well. One of my new faves! Anyway, I find I'm not really missing it in and of itself, but it's pretty isolating. I guess, as long as I'm enjoying the weight training, it can't be all bad, right? And if I never hear from any of those "bar friends", well, that will tell me something about them too. It's not like they don't know how to get in touch with me; I'm on facespace, "liking" their posts all the time, and several of them have my cell # and email as well.
I think the isolation from my family is actually helping me too - I haven't talked to my family in a month or two, and I feel much better about things. I don't know why that is, as they're never intentionally negative or rude or anything, but there's something about interacting with them (ok, with my ma & g'ma) that really rubs me the wrong way, takes a ton of energy from me. As introverted as I am, I really can't afford to have "energy suckers" in my life, even if they *are* family. I'll eventually have to get in touch with them again, but I need to keep it a little less frequent, I think.
1:23 p.m. - 2013-09-17
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