This is probably why I don't have friends - I can't read people at all. You want to know what kind of asshole I am? Read the 1st part of my last entry and this will make sense. GRJ posted a facespace message thanking people for coming to hang out with her last night, and in it, she called me her "dearest (city in which I live) friend". How is it that to me, it seemed like it didn't matter I was there, but to her, it was such a big thing, and that she thinks of me that way? How is it that I can't see these things, or understand them? How can I spend my entire life watching people, seeing them interact, and still not get it?
I seriously have to wonder what's wrong with me.
(Well that's pretty fucked up - I wrote a big thing about the party last night, and now it's not there? I don't really feel like repeating it, so to summarize; *everyone* there was a major pothead, I was the only one not smoking (and fuck, did they smoke a lot!), and I felt completely out of place/disconnected from them all. It felt like a total waste of time for me to have even gone up there. Only spoke maybe two sentences to GRJ all night, and we were sitting less than 15ft apart. Totally discouraging waste of time.)
4:01 p.m. - 2013-07-04
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