I think I got my "holiday drinking" out of me now. Had a couple nights of depressed drinking and lamenting my state of "aloneness", and felt really stupid about it afterwards. Now, I'm back to accepting that I have no idea how to meet anyone, and have no hobbies that would offer opportunities to do so, which brings me back to my original premise that I'll be alone forever. ;-)
Ok, that's not completely true... it's entirely possible that I'll start drinking again before the holiday is over. I almost forgot about the oh-so-discouraging New Year's holiday. I'll be on my own again, most assuredly uninvited to any house parties, and will spend the entire day arguing with myself about whether I should at least be around people, or accept my life & just stay home & get shit-faced, ringing in the New Year alone and toasting to several more decades of the same (after making sure I've unplugged my computer so I don't do anything stupid, like write about my feelings in here or on one of my online forums, or worse yet, try writing an ex or two in a pitiful attempt at making a connection with another human).
Well, aren't I just a ray of sunshine!? lol Moving on... found a table/chair set that is pretty close to what I've been wanting. The table is cool, but the chairs need to be refinished - only cost $25 for both the table and three chairs - hard to beat. I just realized how much I still have to do around this place. Ugh. only a week of vacation left (as I had to work last Sat, Sun, & Mon, after I was supposed to be on vacation) and I've barely made any progress on this place. On the plus side, the extra work means a lot of overtime pay, so maybe I'll buy myself something cool! Won't that be nice - something new, cool & fun that I won't be able to share with anyone because... well, you know. *rollseyes*
I guess one positive thing is that I'm still working out, even if not as often as I might. I started doing some new exercises, and that's made it a bit fun, so hopefully that will keep me into it for a while. Oh, I've also grown my beard out a bit. If I find *any* sort of motivation, I'll post a pic of it. Of course, you see how well I've done with pics of my new place, so don't hold your breath.
4:18 p.m. - 2012-12-22
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