So, the gal I was going to visit decided to come to my town instead. Got here Saturday, we went to see a live band, then came back to my place. It was a good night, but nothing happened (pretty much due to my lead). I don't know what it is about her... She's both attractive and not, to me. I don't really know what to say about the whole thing - we spent an innocent, no-pressure evening together and it was nice. I know she wanted more, and part of me did too, but there are things about her & the situation that just don't sit well with me (and honestly are a bit intimidating). Nothing necessarily negative (although to someone who isn't *very* open-minded I suppose some things might be), but things that just make me a bit uncomfortable.
I don't know if I can really go into any more detail. I had a prime opportunity to have a great sexual experience with someone who probably could have taught me a thing or two, but I just couldn't bring myself to initiate it. Even though part of me *really* wanted to. I guess a bigger part of me realized it's not really who I am.
On another note, I'm still lifting, and making progress. Also of note, I blew up my brand new, never-been-used dishwasher the other day. In a fog of medicine intended to reduce my nasal & chest congestion, I mistakenly connected it to a 220V circuit, rather than a 120V. Flipped the breaker, heard a pop (that wasn't the breaker) flipped it back off, & when I got upstairs I saw all the "magic smoke" floating in the air in front of the machine. If I can't find the electrical components at work tomorrow, I'm going to have to buy a new goddamned circuit board.
This weekend was much less ideal than I'd hoped. And I'm never going to find a girl that's right for me.
p.s. I talked to the German on the phone today. He's going to tell me his vacation schedule after he submits it in January, so i can coordinate my trip with him. Once I find that out, I'll be posting about it here to see if/when the British faction of my list might be able to meet up! Hopefully, taxes this year (due to my foreclosure) won't kill me.
12:22 a.m. - 2012-11-27
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