Well, on the positive side, I'm pretty much "over" A.C. & that whole situation. I sent her a text yesterday saying that the offer for a cycle ride was still open, kind of as a way to see if she just got busy before, or was really avoiding me. Didn't hear back, so I definitely got the message. On the negative side, the few nights I went out in this last week or two, while fun at the time, were really bad for me, both physically (hangover much!?) and mentally, as I didn't meet anyone interesting and that depressed me even more. I think it's going to be a struggle for me to stay in, but i think it'll be better for me. For now, I'm going to try to just go to Huey's night - well, actually, it'll still be ladies' night, but he got moved to another evening. I guess they want to see if he can build up another night as well as he did that one!? So I'm not sure if I'll do the Wed. thing, or his new night, but as I said, I'm going to try to keep it to one night a week.
I helped the contractor guy I "hired" to install my cabinets, so now all but the sink base is in place. I have a couple modifications to make on that one, but should have it done in the next few days. I'm supposed to have a contractor over to get an estimate for counter tops, and then I'm going to order my appliances. I guess the store I'm getting them from is having a big sale, so I might be able to upgrade a couple of them, like maybe the refrigerator - will have to see how things go.I saved a ton of money on flooring too, and will have my windows paid off in a few weeks, so hopefully I can.
Still lonely, but I think it's going to be best that I just give up on the idea of finding someone for now, and try to get the house done, and then get myself back in shape physically. Maybe that will help me feel better mentally!? I can only hope.
Oh, and I still think I'm insane. Or else just a big fucking idiot. Or that I just have *zero* social skills. Or that I do, but am the only person on the planet who actually is who they say they are and does what they say they'll do...
10:59 p.m. - 2012-09-09
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