Thanks for the input guys (and by guys, I mean gals)! I agree with you that it would be unwise to commit to having her stay with me for that kind of extended time frame. In fact, the more I think about it, the more I think having her stay even one night would be a bad idea. Even though we had a good long-term relationship, there was always something about her that made me, in the back of my mind... uneasy? Like, whether intentional or not, there was a sort of, well, evil? energy lurking in her, but I could never put my finger on it. Most of the time, I trusted her completely, but occasionally, there would be something unsettling about her. A while back, while talking with GRJ, I casually mentioned Viv, and she made an off-hand comment about her being (paraphrased) "just evil", or "just pure evil", I can't remember. I asked her what she meant, but she wouldn't say. I let it go, but it's made me wonder ever since, if Viv ever did/said something to GRJ to make her feel that way!? I know Viv is a great liar and manipulator, even though I never felt she did so with me (I saw this because of her interaction with her family, namely her dad, and how easy it was to lie to him, and to make up stories with unbelievable ease).
Anyway, the point is, I'm remembering all this stuff due to your input, and I appreciate that. I'm sure we'll visit while she's here, but there won't be any funny business going on, and I won't be letting her stay - I don't want any of her negative energy getting into my new space here.
Part of the reason that helped me to better cope with that decision (about not messing around with Viv at all) is that I got "propositioned" last night on YIM! Well, propositioned again, I suppose... Remember Ginger? (Canada Red?) We im'd last night & did a little flirting & such. Not sure how it came up, but she finally flat-out admitted that I was the first guy she'd considered having join her & her guy (they already have a couple (also friends of mine) that they "play" with sometimes, and Ginger has had a few women with her guy, but she's had a fantasy about two guys for a while, and apparently was too shy to come right out & say it that Saturday when I met her at the club a while back. Well, her guy said he was up for it, but he wanted nothing to do with another guy himself, as he's straight. I had to tell her the same thing, and that, in fact, I wouldn't be comfortable with another guy being around, period - just not my thing. Anyway, for some reason (maybe because of the flirting and convincing her to tell me all of that) I was a lot more forward than usual, and told her, essentially, that she should see if he would let her "play" with me on her own! I mean, she'd already told me that he'd let her find a female playmate on her own, and would be ok with her finding a guy too, but she doesn't want to, because she would want to be around if he found a gal, and she doesn't think it'd be fair if she did but he couldn't. I told her about the agreement Viv & I had like that, and that if each person was ok with the boundaries they'd set as a couple, there shouldn't be a problem. (Viv & I never found a gal we both liked so it never worked out for us, but that's beside the point!) Anyway, she wasn't against the idea at all, so who knows? She might stop out my way sometime & stay for a weekend! *grin* Even if she doesn't, or even if nothing ever comes from that convo, it made me feel a lot better about myself, both to be able to flirt successfully with a cute girl, and to know that there actually *is* someone out there who finds me attractive enough to sleep with! lol
So, on to another topic! I mentioned the headaches I've been getting, right? Not just the "hangover" ones, but even the recent, non-drinking night ones? I might not have mentioned this, but I've also had an issue with the nerves on the lower left side of my face (the same nerve bundle that caused my Bell's Palsy a while back) - that part of my face has been "tingly" for a week or more. Well, I went to the chiropractor today, and told him about both issues, and he found that my C5 vertebrae was subluxated (again), and said that's likely the cause of both. I asked him if a shitty bed/worn out pillow might be the cause of my recurring C5 issue & he said it's quite likely, so I'm going to start seriously looking for a new bed & pillows. I figure, the better I sleep, the better I'll feel (both physically and mentally) and hopefully, the more I'll get done around here - besides, as at least one of you mentioned before, it'd be good to have a nice bed, just in case I did have some female company! ;-)
7:38 p.m. - 2011-11-30
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