Hmmm...
Just got back from the "audition", and I have to say I have no idea how it went. They were nice guys, and very talented. I sang a few songs with one of the guys playing guitar, and did alright until he started to sing harmony along with me. I found it hard to keep my note with him singing at first, and actually had to stop during the first song. I sang a few others with him & did better, but not great - of course, they were songs that I hadn't really practiced; I was just doing them from memory. I did end up showing a little of the guitar, basically, just songs that I knew, but I really wasn't very good. At least they knew to expect it.
I'm supposed to go back & meet a couple of the other guys when they get together to rehearse this Sunday, & the main guy said he'd get me on a mic & see if being with a full band & amplified helped me out at all. I repeated to them that they weren't going to hurt my feelings if they said I wasn't a good fit for the group, and that even if they didn't want me in a permanent position, that I'd love to fill in until they actually found the right guy.
Yeah, I know my words & probably even my body language weren't the most positive, but based on the reaction I got tonight, I've already accepted that they won't want me. (there was really nothing negative at all - I'm just a bit phased by the lack of any enthusiasm) At least I made the huge step of trying out for something, you know? It's the first time I've ever done that, aside from the one singing group which I don't count, for various legitimate reasons. Anyway, it was a big step for me - big as karaoke was my first time, and no matter what happens with this group, I know I have it in me to try out for others, if I want.
Heh, it sounds like I've already given up, doesn't it!? I haven't, I'm just trying to be realistic. These guys seem to be very professional, and way out of my league. The fact that they're giving me another chance, I think, is more indicative of how nice they are, rather than whether I'm any good or not. Still, I may shine when they put me on a mic, and also, this time I'll know what to expect, so I should be ready for the harmonies.
Man, for as mellow as I feel now, I still feel like my nerves are shot - I know I shouldn't, but I'm gonna go out for a drink or two & just relax a bit, try to get this off my mind. I need to either stay positive, or not dwell on it - focusing on negativity will only bring that negative result about.
'night, gang!
9:52 p.m. - 2009-03-19
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