This article helps me feel a bit better about not talking to my ma/sister anymore.
I got a text from my ma yesterday that simply said, 'thinking of you' with a couple heart emojis. I deleted it. I tend to keep second-guessing myself on cutting ties with them, but I need to keep reminding myself why I did. And of the fact that not once in all the years I've been explaining the issues, have they apologized for their behavior towards me, because they don't think they've done anything wrong.
I do think I've made the right call, I just wish I could find a friend group with whom I could connect.
Oh, and I tried to send a text to CC a couple days ago, just to send holiday best wishes. It was undeliverable the 1st time, so I tried to send it again, with the same result. I'm guessing she got a new phone # & failed to transfer mine to it. Honestly, I thought (was hoping?) that, by having my cell #, I might actually hear from her a bit more often - that's not been the case. I'm debating whether to send an email to the address she used originally to contact me last year, but I'm also wondering, why bother? Even if she's dealing with health issues, or is 'busy', It literally takes 5-10 seconds to send an emoji, and I find it impossible to believe someone can't find that time in several months. Now that I think of it, this applies to Viv & GRJ as well, neither of whom I've heard from in months again. Why do I hold out hope that we could still be friends? A friend makes time, right? I feel like I'm meaningless to the people who used to mean a lot to me, and if they don't care, why would anyone else with whom I wasn't that close?
12:28 p.m. - 2022-12-26
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