So, I think I'm done talking about all of my negativity here. All I do is talk myself in circles, and nothing ever improves; all it does is alienate the few good people who bother to take the time to connect with me.
I've kind of come to a place now where I feel like I really shouldn't be talking to anyone about my issues anymore. Talking won't solve anything - I think I've proven that at this point. Besides, I've been talking about these things for decades, and nobody in the world has the patience to listen to someone repeat the same negative shit over and over for that long. It's likely why I don't have many (any?) friends, and why I never will, if this continues. I'm sure I'll still experience these negative things, but honestly, nobody else needs to know about them.
I have another journal that's locked, that I won't let anyone read. If I feel a need to post anything negative, I'll do it there. I'll keep this one for day-to-day small-talk stuff, or the rare occasion that something positive actually happens. Maybe then, I'll be able to create a new external image of myself that others might actually want to get to know...
9:15 p.m. - 2021-06-27
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