I got a surprise text from Bo last night, asking if I was free for dinner. She and her husband are back in town from (Connecticut?), and were meeting some friends, so I said I'd join them.
It was a chance to put my idea into practice (pretend things are fine, see how people react). I ran into A and L (not sure I mentioned L before? He's one of the regular crowd at the well) on my way in & they invited me to sit with them at the bar, so I did. We had a decent conversation, and then I excused myself when Bo et al arrived. We ended up with 5, as two of the people were showing up later. The others were people I've known since my divorce but haven't seen in a long time. I successfully put the negativity out of mind, and had some enjoyable conversations & we hung out for a couple hours.
When I was leaving to pay my tab, A made a comment about my socializing, something to the effect of 'Look at you, all socializing with your friends!'... I can appreciate that they may have been happy to see me have that kind of interaction, but honestly, it felt a bit patronizing, and is one of the things I've been hesitant about. (Not a fan of people calling attention to things - it makes me self-conscious.) Anyway, I didn't dwell, acknowledged it, and walked out with the group. Bo said she thinks she'll be able to make it back into town on a somewhat more regular basis now, with the vaccinations & such, so I may have some get-togethers to look forward to?
Weird thing was, even though I had a late meal (which usually keeps my heart rate up) and only got 6 hrs sleep (again!), I actually got as much deep sleep as I usually do when I'm in bed for 9-10 hours - over 1.5 hrs of deep sleep last night, which is pretty cool/strange. I wonder if it actually has to do with the socializing I did? I guess that's one more thing I can try to test out, going forward.
2:47 p.m. - 2021-06-30
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