On the positive side, I've found that since I stopped taking that supplement, I've been able to physically handle drinks without having horrible hangovers.
On the negative side, my desire to socialize has overruled my better judgment, and I've gone out for drinks the past three nights in a row (on the cycle, of course). I see other people getting together with friends, having a great time, and I want to do that too. Since I don't have friends, I go to bars/breweries in search of them. Last night, I actually did run into some old acquaintances, and it was fine & I enjoyed myself for a while, but it led to too many drinks, and another let-down by the end of the night, as the connections were shallow and ultimately not satisfying.
It always seems to come back to something like this - I don't feel like I belong in this world. I don't fit in to the scenes with which I'm familiar, and I don't know how to find new scenes by myself. I feel stuck. It's very frustrating...
7:49 a.m. - 2021-05-02
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